BABIES

The sweetest person said “one day you’ll find someone who won’t make you jealous”

Please don’t switch the light on until it’s pitch black outside. I can handle the dark if we’re touching.

I glance at the white curtain hanging at my window, my failing eyesight focuses on the pretty ripples that billow like smoke. Your apprehension to answer my question, your endearing failure to realise I just don’t care about who you share your heart or body with anymore. Thats not why I’m asking. I’m just testing myself.

When I stop wanting to know your secrets and everything there is to know about you, when I stop feeling jealous, when I can stand to hear about the girls you’ve loved without feeling an emptiness in my gut, when I want to know what you did that night with her, when I berate you for flirting with me when someone is trying to fall in love with you: is the moment you know I’ve stopped caring. And I don’t really mind that she got you, because she’s not pretty. In times like these, the knowledge of that simply has to suffice.